Inside Mayhem

Thoughts once distant seem to come back now
I beg for not to fall into this hole I managed to get out before
Too late when they force their entrance in my head
I feel a suffocating breeze in the air of those remote times
The sky is now invaded by black clouds of those forgotten sorrows
Everything seems to come back to the past that, once again came to torment me
How will it be the end of another journey to my past?
More manipulating than ever, hits where it hurts the most
Ruthless as always, attacks the deepest wounds
I want to rise before it but my strength doesn’t help me
Quicksands where I stand when I less needed
I need a hand, not strong but sincere
In the purest soul is my salvation
Didn’t want to find her before, now I beg for her more than ever
Will she cover her ears to my despair in an act of revenge?
Or will she come to me and show me how high I can reach?
Time I don’t have to walk such a long path
Path that becomes short when I have your hand
When I ear your words where my torments used to linger
You brought with you courage to live in this world, when I only had fear
The truth is that you came to save me from myself
You didn’t let me give up when I lost a battle
You helped me conquer the following ones, in this mental war
I found myself exhausted but always strong, with you by my side
Finally I was no longer betrayed by my conscience
Now only lingers one thought in it, that overtops any other ones
Powerful and true, lives where many succumbed
With the certainty that it will stay there beyond the end of the world
To wake up with a kiss of yours in the most beautiful mornings
To hold you in the greyest days
To protect you in the darkest nights
To live the dreams you eager the most
To make those dreams reachable and unforgettable
To look at you in the eyes and to say that I love you
To know that it will never have an end near by
And to promise you that whenever you need I will also give you the hand you once gave me
True, unreachable for everyone in the world, eternal
That’s the thought that lives inside me

Winds Of Change

Winds of change caress my face
Colours fade in empty space
Mist appears, to mark the forbidden place
Disappearing without a single trace

Confusion reigns, trying to find
Familiar ground to ease my mind
Everything is swirling fast
Something recognised is an haunting past

Longing, yearning, stop the ride
Let me leave, follow the tide
Take me to my comfort zone
This brave new world is not my home

Movements settle, shadows firm
The world stops spinning, corner turned
My suspicions are confirmed
Where I am is what I earned

My Nemesis

I among the shadows dwell
Searching for some amities
Fleeing from this wicked spell
I cannot see beyond my sanity

Evil burns inside me like a black flame of hate
My blood runs cold
My misanthropy will never abate
Even with my abhorrence for this world

My Nemesis, self-hatred is perched
On my shoulder she sits and weeps
For surcease of pain I search
In my futile attempt to keep

Innocence Lost

Chariots invade, ablaze with fire
Bold insanity, mad with desire
Squelching humanity standing its ground
Murderous metals relentlessly pound

Frailty shivers behind slabs of cement
Mighty ones marching refuse to relent
Overhead, wings drop bombs on the land
Deceived youngsters die by their own hand

Innocence lost, an astounding rate
Unsuspecting prey in a chaotic state
Wee ones cringe in horrendous grief
Eyes searching upward seeking relief

Kings demanding the right to defend
Death tolls mount even up to the end
Cells of hatred dot the land
Malady spreads with a flick of the hand

Leaders, as one, declaring their truth
Ignoring the price paid with their youth
Evil the crime, great is the cost
Unforgivable the act of innocence lost

Darkness For Now

Starbursts and fireflies
Softly singing lullabies
Bringing unto gods and men
Shades of love from the poet's pen
Watching over your tired brow
Lulling you into sleep for now

Until you must awaken, stay
Until we meet some other way
Now the dim and shadows keep
Careful vigil of your sleep
For the night is a blessing, nothing more
A blanket of peace for men of war

Lover's sin and lover's plight
A cloak of dark for lover's flight
In the heavens, sinewy threads of dew lay
Sleeping sound, awaiting dawn, awaiting day
But why can we not stifle the morn?
Why do we reside in a world of dark and light torn?

Darkness, now you see
Is a new reality
Escape into its protective breast
Where you'll be forever safe to rest
Smiling tears of dim eyes fall
Tasting sweeter than honey, bitter as gall

Stay but a moment more
Listen sound to the shadow's lore
The last things that you shall hear
Before the dawn awakens your fear
So remember this, our slumber, our golden sleep
For the dim, your heart it shall keep

Open a solemn eye
Whisper soft the lullaby
Remember little of your sleep?
Recall little of your siesta deep?
The darkness is where I shall stay
Until we meet some other way

Black Roses

I'm resigned to my fate
Of misery and hate
No longer searching for perfection
I've accepted my life of rejection

Now I can finally say
I'm throwing my past away
Your betrayal had damaged my heart and mind
But thanks to you they're not so blind

Your black roses have no thorns
So I'll get lost beneath the waves
I'll drown in my own thoughts
And pray I never get saved

The Book Of Death (Mephisto)

Infernal desire possessing my mind
Archdemons taking control of my life
Spiritual madness of the most delirious kind
Initiating along with Lucifer's rite

No longer condemned to brittle thoughts
Turning me into another common mortal
I'm now living under demonic clouts
Waiting for this world to become an appalling dismal

I know Alastor won't let me down
For he'll punish every human in a cut-throating way
Then I'll keep record on this book I once own
And pray for an upgrade every single day

I am Mephisto!

Blind Souls

Everyone is dying
From the moment they're born
Everyone is crying
But we're forsaken and forlorn

Disillusion shattered dreams
Destroyed visions of future
Perfection is the name of condemned themes
For a million of damned souls in overture

So many souls in torment
Reaching out to their creator
We can only lament
Because he is the betrayer

My Sin

No one else is around
I scream from the wicked sting
I don't want to think about her anymore
But she is my everything

I can't allow myself to breathe
And so my lungs are caving in
Because I can't take in the air
For it's poisoned with my sin

You kiss me bittersweetly
But I taste approaching death
You offered your life so I took it
As I inhaled your last breath

Silent Winter

There was a time when stillness meant nothing to me
Once silence meant lack of sound
Winter came once a year
I danced, redcheeked, each year's first snow
Tongue out to taste each flake's welcome sting
I laughed, distinct from nature's cycles
A scrap of wonder floating in a torrent
Of sorrow I couldn't grasp
That laugh, mouth open, sums up my past
I craved fulfillment, to shallow to know
I could never be fully filled
A sound associated with silence
Delicately etches the seconds
As they fly past
Snowflakes of lost bliss
That drift into a list of memories

This white hush of rushing blood
Carves it seamless tears
In blank empty spaces that echo silence
Where beginnings come to an end
I speak of the hissing silences of loss
That trap hollowness in sound
This liquid whisper is the music of the realm I dwell in
It is the answer to all questions
Not said
And so much has been left unexpressed
The certainties of yesterday
Twist like smoke into laughter
I will answer those questions you never asked

You saw the pleasure sent
Scintillating through my nerves
As passion eroded resolve
And I offered yourself to me
In the twisted reason of convenience
The wordless joys you squeezed out
Without question blessed
Our pleasures then
But when embers blink out
The darkness resumes
The rest is silence

Angel On Earth

In a place where the sun sleeps
The moon welcomes the nightfall
Glares mists of time once lost
A momentum to change us all

In this dead hour, words are worthless
A silent echo whispers your name
Still gnawed by your oblivious absence
That stopped flaring up my world's flame

Although you're far, you're close to me within
When I watch the moonlight overcoming my mind
All the rest lags behind in my conscience
Lingers only thoughts of the most gripping kind

I keep falling in those eyes of yours
Quivering everytime they look at me
I never thought i would feel this way
Can't figure out if this is a dream or reality

You've changed me since day one
You give me strength to be something better
When all that's left is a gruesome mayhem
You're the one who stops me from falter

The way you've became a part of me
The way you're always in my heart
Now I know you're heaven sent
You're an angel on Earth

Losing Sight

Scattered ashes fall in my wake
Raging hatred inspires
Clouds of smoke fill an empty soul
Burning immortal fires

Blood splattered walls
Gnawed through ropes that bind
Thinking thoughts out of nothing
Of the most desperate kind

Can't you see the undying sadness
The pain and the creeping madness?
The stell-clad sky which threatens to fall
And in glowing embers cover us all

One Last Moment

My mind is confused, my heart is weak
Devoured in love, hate and rage
Everytime I see your reflections I'm falling in too deep
With these shadows I'm caged

With a deep breath I cleared my thoughts
And let everything fall away
For my life will soon be better
Cause I'm dying on this day

I'm confused by my own logic
I lost more than gained from greed
The only tools that ease my pain
Are those which make me bleed

The time has come
There's no sense in looking back
The pain and anger are now gone
As everything fades to black

Lost In Myself

I know but I don't
I'm up but I'm down
I'm here but I'm there
I'm wrong but I'm right
Is it day or is it night?
I know everything about nothing
And nothing about everything
I'm headed left but I'm headed right
My world is upside down
Or maybe I’m the one upside down
And my world right side up
So many tears I cry
But my eyes are dry
I'm alive but I'm dead
Confused yet?
This is ten seconds in my head…

Mortal Love

The silver years we'll never lose
Fell out of our hands and flew away
We reach out to feel them one last time
And we ran amongst mirrors of yesterday

The seas we flew in past lives
Have now been dry for days
We forgot to send letters once again
To moon beams in sun rays

Lost inside the clouds in a black sky
Upon mountains of rain
I saw the dreams we once had
Running away again

Dying Dreams

Everyday the thoughts would gather
Each one dies as they slowly creep
I pick them up and place them in a book
Between the pages is where they sleep

Children's dreams left to die
The tears now rule with their constant scream
Murdered by society those worlds of them
And by its synthesized dream

I cry as I gather their dreams
To put them to rest in their despair
But soon they'll see and realize
We need dreams more than we need air

World Of Darkness

Lying underneath a gothic archway
I stay doomed to your heart
Just looking at your eyes where I could go astray
And spend my life with you, here in the dark

Stare at the crimson sky
Where the moon rises to see your smile
Kiss the stars goodbye
And rest in your own grave for a while

Your absence is so hard to abide
My life became aimless
Wishing you were every second by my side
To hold me in this world of darkness

Immortal Kiss

Nothing but silence
Within a hollow alley
I await
The sound of a heartbeat
The sound of the blood flowing
In your fresh veins
Screaming into my thoughts
I'm waiting for you my love
Here in the chasm of the night
Waiting for you to call to me upon the wind
I know you feel my presence
I see the colour of your eyes through the fog
You have come for what only I can give you
My immortal kiss

Life In Black

Forbidden by day
Accepted by night
I once was an angel who stood tall
But now I have fallen
I must live by a kiss of blood
I awake by night in an act of uncalled desire
And stray into moonlight rays of a silver glow
I am neither the living nor the dead
I am eternity
I will never cry nor will I weep
I will now kiss thoughs white roses goodbye
For all I can see is darkness
In a world of ever lasting time
And here I'll stay in the shadows of the night
Quilt of despair and never again
See the hopes and dreams of life

We Are The Night

Weeping angels with eyes of ink
Smile with secret delight
As the marshaled forces of heaven and hell
Shiver from our might
For imposing and majestic are we
We who wield vicious, unfathomable power
Our multitude, our legions
Hungry for the fight
For centuries our place denied
Now the darkness belongs to us
We stand revealed at last
Feel temptations embrace
The blood kiss
That only we can bestow
A dark mist of desire
Sweeping you away
The Lords of darkness
Whispering sweetly
We are the night...

Vampyre Nation

The exquisite taste of eternal temptation
This black fire sun
Spirit filled and symbolic
Awash my soul in darkness
Midnights' flood sweeping me away
Honing me into a spiritual weapon
A weapon of carnal fury
A passion of shadows
Chasing away the taint of light
My senses awaken to the service
The service of my hearts design
Ghost of desire
Calling out in the kingdom of eternal night
Saints of shadow
With their chalices of crimson wine
Exceeding in excellency
Lavish empires through out all time
The darkest temptation
Of cold, wicked inclinations
An immortal world of darkness
Bathed in blood
Enjoying a wanton celebration
The reign of the vampire nation!

Cold Nights

You hide in the shadows of my dreams
Cold and silent, watching me
Every night I see you lurk and stare
Surrounded, yet when I cry there's no one there

I feel you pulling and must give in
For I have no choice and can never win
My battle with you must have an end near
For no one should spend every night in fear

Too late it is for these words when you take me
Into one of you I fear you will make me
You take with you a hand once mine
And there I'll stay, unchanged by time

Endless Tears

I can see through this veil of tears
This pain rolling from eyes
A heart wrenching tour of myriad years
Choking memories of human cries

Perhaps my sanity has finally departed
Stolen from my immortal soul
Centuries of agony and the broken hearted
Of which much has been my role

A once calloused soul immune to their pleas
Has been snapped into grace
For my atonement can never appease
Haunted am I by each mortal face

Their cries for mercy are now painful shouts
And my heart now cries for them
I'm doomed if I cannot shut them out
For my suffering has no end

Worlds Apart

In another world
I could enfold you
With gossamer wings
And fly you away
Until you forgot about
The one who took your heart
And crushed it in his hands

But in real world
All I can do
Is wrap my arms around you
And hold you as the tears fall
Kissing them goodbye
And encircle your heart with my love

Until the pain goes away

Slowly Dying

His eyes are looking at me
As I look back I see the pain
The feeling of despair is so evident
But no one else seems to notice

I can see his anguish
His suffering is almost too much to bear
He's trapped in a world in which no one understands
He's fighting to survive

Each day is harder than the day before
Why doesn't anyone else see this?
I want to help him
But I feel restricted by some unknown force

His pain is so overwhelming
I'm still looking into his eyes
I can't turn from them
They are so foreign yet so familiar

I can feel his agony
The pain takes hold and will not release me
It pulls me into this empty void
This terrible reality which is his world

A world he cannot relinquish himself from
Finally, I'm able to blink my eyes
And he's still looking back at me… in the mirror

You, Me And My Pain

Alone again at night
To drown myself in sorrows
the cold wind blowing in my face
As I sit here in the dark
A tiny candle, my only light
A tiny flame, my only warmth
Sit on the beach in the middle of the night
And think of nothing but you

The sand is cold
My face is wet
Both my wrists are bleeding
A pool of blood on the snow white sand
That shall never be seen
I get up and slowly walk home
Knowing that the sand holds all my secrets
And the waves are my only friends

The cold winter air bites my face
In the flickering light of the fire
Nobody ever sees me
Nobody will ever know
Know what I do in the darkness in the middle of the night
The blade glides across my wrist
The blood runs down my arm
It's all because of you
And still you feel no pain

Fallen Angel

Staring at the sky in this cold night
My life passing by while the sun sleeps forever more
The moon clears my thoughts with its deep light
It is you I'm waiting for…

Suddenly an angel came to me smiling
She looked at me and made me blind
She kissed me and my heart stopped beating
Never wanna lose you because an angel like you is so hard to find

In that moment heaven seemed a bad place to be
I could feel her soft lips so close to mine
Her hair moved by the wind I couldn't see
I immortalized that night so silent yet so divine

After burning me with love she had to go
My heart felt like dead and gone too
I searched for an answer inside me and now I know

That fallen angel... was you

My Dark Angel

Your eyes so deep and dark
Pools of pain that touch my heart
Through these holes I see your soul
And I'm blinded forever more

Your lips so soft and sweet
Taste delicious enough to eat
Through these caresses I feel the pleasure
That made me lost in your kiss forever

Your love so intense and dimmer
Waves of passion that ignite my desire
Through these flames I feel my heart beating like hell
Because I'm in love with you, my dark angel

Why?

Why can't you be mine?
Why can't my dreams of you become real?
Why can't you see that the light of my love only for you shine?
Why can't you see the way you make me feel?

Why do you ignore my true feelings for you?
Why do you keep living in deep sadness?
Why don't you understand he's not worth the pain he puts you through?
Why don't you realize that he's making your life lifeless?

Why can't you see that you're not happy with him?
Why can't you see that he only makes you suffer even more?
Why can't you see that without I'm slowly dyin'?
Why can't you see it is for you my heart beats for?

Why do you keep living a lie?
Why don't you run from that fake smile?
Why don't you see that for you I would die?
Why do you live your precious life in denial?

Why can't you be in my arms in the coldest nights?
Why can't we kiss each other at every second?
Why can't we be together to watch the moonlights?
Why can't I be more than just a friend?

Why the words "I love you too" are so hard to tell?
Why can't you shout to the world that I fill your heart?
Why don't you choose living in paradise instead of hell?
Why can't you see that everytime I see your tears my world falls apart?

Why do you look at the sky like you're waiting for someone to save you?
Why can't I be that fallen angel?
Why don't you show me your love like I do?
Why "I'm so in love with you" is the only thing I can tell?

Why?

Gave My Heart To An Angel

Every night you walk through my darkest dreams
A vision of you turns my life in something hard to forget
It seems like you're always there for me when all that's left are screams
When just a dark kiss of you is all I'm trying to get

I remember that night when I first saw you like yesterday
You were at the beach standing at the moonlight
Your deep blue eyes could be seen miles away
When I look at them it was the world's most beautiful sight

We stayed there to watch the dawn take part
As we looked at the sky the sun rises in perfect harmony
And then at that exact time I gave you my heart…
It was a moment that will always be in my memory

Since that day you are my sweet dark lady
And even when there's nothing much left to tell
I will write in the sky for everyone to see
"I will always love you, my angel"

Living In Pain... Dying For A Dark Love...

Death surrounds me in every corner
Can feel its presence even in my sleep
It's going to take me sooner or later
Because the pain I hold inside is so fucking deep

Hypocrisy and lies reign in the world I live in
Rather live in hell than up here
Always living my life like it was a kind of sin
Staying alive was never my wish… because of death I have no fear!

Waiting for too long to watch my last breath
In a blink of an eye all became so quiet
Just me, a picture of you and death
In that moment thinking of you, my dark angel, was something I couldn't help it

Death took me and for that I'm glad
I hope you know that you were the only angel I met
And it was for you I just died, but please don't be sad

I promise I'll be waiting for you when you die too but not yet… not yet

Eternal

Walking through this darkness
Searching for a light to guide me in this hell
Wishing for a life that wasn't meaningless
Trying to escape from this hole I fell

Maybe my destiny was written this way
Maybe I'm forced to take this pain
Maybe I'm dying every day
All I know is that my life was in vain

Now I feel no pain, all seems so natural
Don't know where I am and where to go
I realize that I'm at my funeral
Because I can see my grave and people are screaming "no"

Don't know why these people are so sad
After all they never worried a thing
It was due to their indiference that I've turn mad
And now all they can do is fake crying

You all think that it was a tragedy what happened to me
But now I say that it was the best thing ever
To take that dagger and bleed to death because now I see…

The darkness will make me live forever!

My Last Sky

Wondering every day
What's the point of my existence
Don't care what people say
I know I've got a suicidal tendence

Waiting for death
Like the sky waits for the moon
Just wishing for my last breath
And for darkness to take me soon

A razorblade will make my wish come true
But if I want a painful last thought
I just think of you
Because my world is full of tragedies thanks to what you've brought

All of your fake smiles
All the pain you put me through
Made me walk in this living hell for endless miles
And made me weaker inside too

The cold night is coming
I'm ready to bleed to death and say goodbye
As I look up and the stars are shining
Knowing that this will be my last sky…

Fallen

Somewhere beyond waking
Just out of touch
I see you smiling
Just as always

You always reminded me
Of warm summer nights
Standing on the shore
Waiting for the stars to fall

Silver moonlight in your hair
Eyes that shimmer like jewels
How often I've wondered
How your kiss might taste

I will hold you now
Even as I push you away
For you are an angel
And I have Fallen

I cannot reveal my secrets
Though you beg for explaination
My darling, you could not love me
If you knew the dark curse I hide

Daylight approuches and you cry
For now it is that I take my leave
Not before a kiss, sweet as crimson rain
Heaven forbid it – I have Fallen

Absent World

Crystal reflections dance
Inside the painted glass
I've seen you here before
Same expression, same depression

We have had our differences and our similarities
Children of the same era
Searching for the answers
To questions we forgot to ask

Eyes that burn like flames
Words that slash like daggers
The blood has not been kind
But then again, neither have I

Kiss me as you did in years past
Let your blood trickle past my waiting lips
Show me the pain, show me the anger
And I will show you my world

Sea Of Darkness

My darkest fears are haunting me
Cutting me like a sharp knife
No one's here to see
That death is slowly taking my life

Feelin' like buried alive by everyone that knows me
Alone I cry in my grave
No one's here to see
That I cannot be saved

I stare at my reflection, at my very own enemy
It shows me eyes full of darkness
No one's here to see
That my life is becoming lifeless

Can't stand my growing misery
Living like I am dying
No one's here to see
That I am drowning...
In the sea of darkness

Death Took My Heart

Shadows are killing my fears
Darkness is taking my pain away
Fallen demons are catching my tears
But my thoughts of you remain in my mind every single day

My dreams are turning into nightmares
My world fell apart a long time ago
I must be invisible to the world because no one cares
That I'm living my life in sorrow

Why did you leave me here crying for you?
Why didn't you take me with you to stop my agony?
Why did you go knowing that living without you is something I can't do?
Now there's nothing but na empty space where my heart used to be

So hard to forget and so painful to remember
The day you died was the day my soul died too
It was in that cold night of December
That I've lost the only angel I knew…